maldita

i always get so mushy when i happen to watch a romantic flick, what amazes me are thise people who are deeply inlove with each other i mean its like having the whole world fits just right into your arms. Having someone you know you could spend your whole life with. These kind of movies makes me think if its really possible to care for other so much well in fact sometime before they are just a total stanger. With the joy and happiness potrayed by those character in the movies makes me think if i will ever experience that kind of emotion. You know being extremely excited waiting for that someone to fetch me for our date. To have butterflies in my stomach as i patiently wait for him to knock on my door. To be totally speechless infront of him when just a while ago i practiced all the things i want to tell him. To have someone hold my hand as we walk. To have someone who will laugh at my clumsiness and tolerates my childish ways. To look really nice for him but not to perfect for him not to think that im trying too hard. To experience that kiss in which the whole world stops and you don’t want anything more but to kiss that person again and again. To cuddle with while its raining outside. To just spend my lazy sunday afternoon with him doing noting or just simply watch dvd together. To have someone to tell me how cute i am after hours of crying and then pinch my nose afterwards to make me laugh. To be breathless by just looking at him talk and smile. To feel secure and stunned by his presence. To have someone to talk to that would listen to me. To feel pretty in a bad hair day. To fight and argue then afterwards make up again. To spends foolish holidays in peculiar ways. Ok fine i know im getting too carried away by these movies, I’m a self confessed hopeless romantic though at times i deny it. Its just nice to look at two people inlove although at times i really get annoyed by them. I’m happy being alone, i honestly am, but at times I think its nice to be with someone else. There came a time that i really despised love for the reason that no matter how i try it just keeps on avoiding me. Now i know better, being with someone can make you happy but being contented with my self is a greater feeling. I learned that I shouldn’t find a man just because I’m lonely, what I should do is to find happiness with in me. So while waiting for Mr. Right I’ll just sit down and be pretty and for the meantime settle on those kilig flicks and share their happiness.